I just went to see BBgene's FB profile, in a bid to satisfy my curiosity regarding his much talked-about girlfriend. Because, amazingly, I still dont know who's she. Ok I know I'm lagged, but thats always me.

Looking at their photos, I cant help think: "Has he totally let go of the past?". "Is it so easy (if its even possible) to completely let go of someone whom you were so so close to?". I know it would be ironic, yea, I'll probably realise it when i find a new her. Anyway, those questions are just my something I wonder, but contain no negative intent, disapproval nor sarcasm. Guess it's also because I still very shaken by the fact I have been let go of, so completely and at such amazing speed. But anyway, that's not the main point of this entry.

My main subject this time, would be that, are relationships that started in school or rather first relationships (sec sch-JC) merely puppy love that would probably end afterall? I'm not sure on about other people's views when they were involved in the relationships, but I trust that at least half were quite serious and banked their hope for "eternal hapiness" (or as long as it may last) on the relationship? So why do almost all those relationships, which used to be so sweet and heartwarming and looked as if they were going to last, end up as devastated as if they had been destroyed by the 2000-pound smart-precision bombs which stealth planes F-117 used to turn Saddam's palace into dust? (sorry for the jargons, just feel like using some stuff I read recently from the Skunk Works book I've been struggling to complete haha). The 3 of our class, BBgene's, my senior's 9-year (i think) relationship. I know, people have always been skeptical about these puppy relationships, I too had my reservations. But I once placed my faith in them, and I once was motivated and very moved by the marriage of a Tekong dental officer (who's a HC alumni about 7-10 years my senior) to his first girlfriend. But unfortunately, I'm no longer able to achieve the similar commendable feat. For my first relationship went into the tomb some 9 months ago.

For now, I can only bet very pathetically meagre faith left, on ys's revived relationship (which I still think is a miracle) which seems to be going strong on its 5th year (i think) and counting. Siao ay, do me this favour, fulfill this dream on mine, and show the world that our sincerity and earnestness in even the first relationship can overcome all odds and cynicism.

righthere at1:52 AM