Oh a point to add to the last post. Its super random and a bit lame. There was a part in my dream, about at some concert/party thingy. Our class people were like surrounding the performing stars, for reasons i dont know. And zeng zhi wei (with another star whom I forgot) was singing Jeff Chang's Guo huo (I know this scene's weird), then we were like singing along. Then dont know why they sang till last line,they paused deliberately as if for me. And yea I did sang out "ru2 guo3 ni3 xiang3 fei2, shang1 tong4 wo3 bei1". It was super emo la, but I thought it was totally apt and accurately reflected my feelings. Haha,I've told you its random.

Anyway I dreamt of her again. This time its getting back with her again. And this time I got to ask her hows shes like for the past few months (1 of the things I'm most interested/curious) about. And I told her how I survived through the half a year. But I totally cnt remembered what she said.

I'm tired. In both sense, really slpy, and tired of having to cling onto this. Ironically, its me who want to hold on originally. Ok not that I want to let go immediately now, I still she3 bu4 de2 to let go of these memories which are the only things I have now (wah this can be a classic line in some tv script hahha!). Its all in a lump of ironic and contradicting mess

righthere at1:31 AM