Have i say this before? nvm i'll jus say it agn if i have alrd done so. i shld have turned on my com and blogged whenever i feel lik doing so. cos wait till lik when i on my com (i felt lik blogging.but nw its lik 3hrs fr den n aft a nap),de feeling is no longer intense, tts provided i still rmb wad i 1ed 2 write la.

Anw i rmb most of wad i 1ed 2 write 2day, i guess. I had a wkend duty ytd. My 1st wkend complex duty. But jus 1 of it made me c thru a lot of stuff...tts if i'm nt overly sensitive la. No 1, she's continuing to sms q few, much fewer dan last time during sch (nvm de fact tt dose sms may or may nt b 2 me). It reali hurts, tho i noe shes reali bz at times. but sometimes i'm reali puzzled, cos she can hav lik long brks or free time n still no sms came. 2 b fair, a possible explanation is tt she dinno deres a sms or she 4gt 2 reply, which is acceptable...cos tt happens 2 me q often 2:x But yea, its esp disappointing when de "gd nite" msges dun get replies. She used 2 revert with even sweeter stuff, if nt at least jus affirmation of wad i said or asked. But nw, its nearly totally nth. N if deres a sms b4 she slp or early nxt morn, its jus a "i'm gg 2 slp nw" or "gd morn" style msg.

No 2, i had q a boring duty day/nite. wif so much lag time when i jus sit n stone. I clearly rmb me asking de guys 2 call me but no call came leh. I thot probably dey were 2 engrossed wiffootball or dey had a fun time tt dey din rmb. But i did tell dem a few times. n in de end, i hav 2 er....yin zhe tou pi 2 call n ask how dey were doing. Perhaps cos i reali din mind 2 b dere ba... ok shant continue. Its nt tt graceful a thing 2 tok abt rite?

But hmm, perhaps its nt so bad aft all. Mayb its jus a way..(mayb by fate) to let me feel better, to feel tt i shld choose de overseas route more....

righthere at2:39 PM