argh...i actually forgot what i wanted to write...again. (if u have noticed, i'm typing in proper full english. one of the few times, if not the first.) yea, i often have quite some thoughts that i thought could blog (wide variety,emo stuff, "think-too-much-stuff", just some random comments, and maybe happy stuff once in a while?) and when i come online, i'll be too lazy to even log in to blogger, or i'd have forgotten much of the fine details (yea, my thoughts zoom right down to the exact words of what to write...).
Anyway i roughly remember that its something about my birthday. Yea its because that its about this "important" topic, that i'm typing in better language. Haha. so, it should be, from what i can remember, something like: "Are 20th birthdays very different? Hmm maybe for me only..." By the way, i have gotten my first present already!!4 days in advance!!!ok, second, if you count the treat by my colleagues (Though its really a small treat of less than $6 by 6 people! I didnt know they'll be treating. But nevertheless i still was full then, so couldnt eat much....nothing much more than an ice yuan yang and toast with peanut butter and condensed milk.) Oh ya, and of course, credits to the dinner treat by my uncle and aunty who were the very ones that gave me the first official present. So back to the present. Yea, i dont know if i should feel happy about getting it, or getting more (if there are) over the next few days. But i guess i would feel more excited over the presents, as the days past? I'll try to open them on the actual day itself. But that's not the main point of concern. The important consideration is whether i should just enjoy myself this coming wednesday (i'll be getting an off!), or i should just get myself
occupied in stuff in an attempt to forget about the 'occasion'. Though it'll be quite futile - my family would sure proceed with the annual must-have cake-cutting ceremony. But my rationale is that i dont want to turn 20 (ok dont laugh, i know it sounds stupid), or more of i dont want to grow old just like every other year since my 16th birthday. but this time is doubly scarier because i'm hitting a different digit in the tens position (ok thats an awkward expression). Initially its just felt like i dont want to get older, as usual. But an unusual thought just struck me today. 20, means just 10 more years and i'll hit the "ideal marriage age"? to think i was just discussing this marriage age thing with my friend today. Yea, 10 years, that seems really short now. How can i establish a stable and reasonably successful career in a decade, which a part already would be taken up by studies? Ok i think it'll eventually boil down to my same topic of "the dilemma in life" which i always find it occuring on myself, and which i often thought i still havn't blogged about it. Well, i guess i just have to....think less. Shruggs...
Why do i feel so much like sy today? as in the style of blogging. ok, other than the language la, his's much superior. Haha.
Ok, i hope i'll blog more, get the chance to blog more. but that's provided i get to use the computer more...nowadays. in the meantime, i shall just relax and enjoy my last episode of hotshot, the idol drama which i think have replaced ""mr fighting" or "west-side story" as my number 1...
righthere at12:25 AM