I'm going crazy already. My relationship is in the rocks. 1 of the most serious times (actually the few times all about the same severity). But its certainly the most long-lasting times.

She just doesnt want to say anything. She herself sensed trouble already. And I'm quite sure she knows what's happening. At least she shouls have the clue ba. Because I think I should be feeling quite fine now. But she just says she dont know anything. And she doesnt want to talk. Super downing right. 1, 2-lines messages in exchange for your 1 full message. Apparently she is feeling down, and moody. And as Ly suggested reasons which are equally demoralising. She said till like nothing's the problem with sh not talking. Maybe Ly is genuinely trying to suggest causes.

I'm not complaining la. I'm just trying to say what I feel out. If not I'll explode. But I cant really type a full account. Because I'm quite stressed up by the 3 interviews coming up. And those are actually probably the reasons behind everything. I neglected her because of the applications.

Ly said I just probably can only continue to try to make sh talk. Yea, that's about the only way till I get to go out with her. But that's seriously a tough job. Yesterday's phone call was the most silent ever. You dont know how bad I felt after the call. It's worse than before the call. And I'm very scared. She'll probably just continue to say there's nothing and she's ok. But 1 thing I know, if I just "believe" her and act like nothing is wrong, soon its "bye bye" (to say it in her style) already. It's really that gloomy for me. I dont want to lose her. I really dont.

righthere at8:09 PM