it is not until 2day tt i relived my memories 3 yrs ago. that cos me 2 hav sorta a phobia 4 4x100m. though i won gold in hz but it was the credits of yuanzhang,kaiming n lawrence la. i rem i could barely finish de 100m. mayb cos of the climate (winter) or probably cos i was jus 2 noob den. 2day i m back onto de trak 4 the same event. n coincidentally (or rather forced) i had 2 run my most feared (last runner is equally bad) 1st runner. i was scared of false start, late or even falling dn when i m getting up. ok mayb i tink 2 much. tts y i get nervous even 4 small csm races (i m nt a trakker ok. i bet i wun b tt nervous if i were 2 participate in interclass gym comp).

i ran 4x400m 1st time in my life. n i tink its de last time most probably i'll run it. 2 much unwillingness i had 2 represent our class 2 make up de nums (i shld hav ran 8x200 tt day la. @ least hav medal la.sy u owe me 1)n i discovered tt de most straining part when u run 400m is not ur legs, but ur stomach!!cos immediately aft i finish my round, my stomach cramped lik sht n i couldnt breathe normally or tok la. but i did ok surprisingly. tks chunkang's strategy i finished my round 2nd but aft tt we got owned la.

n de heats 2day ended badly. though artemis swept 1st 4 guys n girls interfac, n we gt 1st 4 hjump 2. she got 1st. she beat all, including de "threat" she mentioned. den she tried 2 up her results. but she failed la. n it wasnt her personal best. n i know she was v sad den. so den i ran aft her 2 c how she was. she told me she was fine la. n i told her "it was jus csm". "but de issue its not whether its csm or not". sori if i appeared 2 b insensitive, of cos i noe tt. but i was just concerned and trying 2 comfort u la. ok i admit i sux @ tt la. den she sat @ de steeper chase thing so i jus stood dere la. den she suddenly said "i m ok.u can go back nw. i jus 1 2 b alone" (wasnt sure bout de last line but shld b tt s inferred fr drama serials). so i jus gestured some stuff n walk off. i wasnt angry, i was jus disappointed. i werent dere 2 jus c if u were ok. i was dere 4 accompaniment. n i dunno y my day jus spoilt lik tt. its de 1st time i can rem tt i feel sad 4 some1. ironically, i tink she wasnt tt sad aft everything...but i still m

righthere at11:25 PM