i m damn freaking tired n damn dn. but still i mus blog. deres a v strong feeling asking me to blog cos so much happen 2day, both happy n unhappy. but generally i tink de day sux though it started looking well man.

1stly sori guys 4 uber emo-ing towards the last part of the reunion dinner. There were some reasons: i was damn tired, i suddenly feel hot n restless, i seriously dun lik the topic (listen still ok but tok.....no esp in front of some1...), i jus keep c-ing sth tt made me damn buay song la. but reali sori 2 dose i scared, dose hu worry bout me. tks a lot man guys.

lets start wif the start of the day. The morn didnt reali bode well. 1 sms last nite asking impt qns ( bout dance) gt dao, den de morn 1 asking same qns also gt daoed. Everything jus seemed so bleak la. lik all hope is lost. cos she din reply suggested rejection n being so popular means deres a high probability of her alr hav a partner. so i went sch, dejected. but den i saw her scissors so i thot i could jus confirm wif her when returning her scissors.so i asked "u hav dance partner alr ah?" n i was geking my heart 2 prep 4 a "er ya". but surprisingly n shockingly, the ans was "no, n sori i 4gt reply ur sms" den i was lik so happy cos i thot tt meant a yes! so i was so happy i go tell a few of us tt i gt dance partner!n i went 2 teach koony fac dance tt i miss all de performances!

so i gt 2 dance wif her la. thot not a lot a lot of eye contact but it was more than the past few times!n i reali happy man. n contented. but i guess human is driven by greed n jealousy.

in KAP, i jus keep seeing the hp light up and she bzily replying away. n wonder hu she gave de straw heart 2. n she dao my sms 2 her aft we left kap. so on the way 2 cityhall i was alr emo-ing.

den thruout the dinner she was still "meng-replying" n "pressing-hp-2-c-gt-sms-or-not)" which was reli pissifying.n i failed all the criterias la "tall (i m nt much taller)", "nice shoulders (whom she specially recommended canoeists), n "sincere (i dunno how sincere i look when i always act dao n run away aft giving prsnt).

so i jus suddenly damn emo. i was lik hav dis stunned expression n i cant tink man. lik 1 2 explode. gt 1 part i thot "u either giv up or go tell her" but i din la. so in de end i jus left earlier wif sy.

righthere at12:01 AM