it seems lik i hav dropped into a deep pit. of no return. perhaps more of a pit with mines. cos every step i seems wrong and hurting? i dunno.

i shldnt even hav started any 1 of these 2. 1 is nice but so far away. so popular. n forever out of my reach.

de other, de earlier 1. i put in so much. but all i get is knife, knife , knife. dun even noe is on purpose or wad. it jus a very painful experience that i dunno even noe why i m continuing.

for the other, i m lik plunging in though i noe its a bottomless pit wif no results.

hope i wun end up wif lots of injuries.

i hate myself, n everything else

righthere at12:35 AM