Its now one wk away from comp. Its really exciting. I am also damn nervous, both wanting the comp to come and at the same time doesnt want it to come.

I anticipated this comp. My first gym comp. The 1st time i can compete aft 4 yrs of sweat, toil, tears, blood. Aft 4 yrs of "wasting" so much time, sacrificing my time, energy, results, leisure. All this yrs, while everyone else is @ home or outside, shopping, nerding, playing, doing ace......Me (of cos & my grp of buddies and my coaches) are slogging our lives out in the gym. Everyday 4 6 days a wk & each time of 4 hrs @ least. Any kind soul, pls do some math to c how much time is spent.

Also aft this comp, all my trg wld stop. I wld be free (though ironically i wun noe wad to do during free time). I can conc on studies & b a......nerd???(yucks)

& also comp i can get 2 c a lot of other gymnasts. ( u noe.....)

but @ the same time, this is most likly also the last gym comp in my life. Come thinking of it, I reali feel very sad. Aft doing it for 4 yrs, it has bcome my life, my passion. Dropping it wld cut me completely away fr the gym world & I wld also not get 2 touch gym forever. reali "she bu de", feel lik crying man.

Anyway however much I anticipate the comp, I dun reali lik this wk. the wk jus b 4 comp. Its lik we keep slacking ( mayb me only lah) & keep giving excuses say theres still a few wks, jus wait until 1 wk b 4 lah. So nows the time. Seriously i reali regret slacking cause last wk hav no time 2 train much. + the stupid tests. Also cant do pt.

If i had work harder, mayb i wld get into the team.....nvm jus pray hard that i can win prizes for my pommel, p bars & high bar. Jus a bit of wishful thinking: iaa also

yea another issue is that it seems lik our team is reali going 2 lose. its lik a fate we cant escape. Mr Lim keeps repeating it. & he claims his intuition (7th sense!) nvr failes. He even want 2 bet. I feel reali bad if we lose, cos if we win we'll get to keep the trophy.

But the fact is, our floor is unstable & unready. Even if koony complete his routine, we r still short of a guy. HB is ok. Vault's standard sux compared 2 last yr (anyway i m a failure in floor & vault cos aft 2 yr of trg i still cant do nuts) . but still managable. pommel seems lik sht actually but we hav polished up much since we started. Hav 2 depend on the twins, though i tink the other schs may b jus as lousy. p bars is quite ok. jus tt is largely a little unstable there + some incomplete routines.

so tts it. Everyone hu has read this entry, can u pray hard 4 us (& me). Tks

righthere at1:09 AM